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One Year

IMG_8215 I wake up just before 7 am to a baby pinching my face. No husband to be seen because he fell asleep on the couch watching Star Trek: The Next Generation. We eat lunch with my in-laws and then hang out and do absolutely nothing for the rest of the day. I never thought this would be how my first wedding anniversary would be, but it’s oddly fantastic.

I decided this is the perfect opportunity to thank my husband. I know I complain at times, but he is truly awesome. I love you Curtis.

Thank you for bringing me stuff. This one will probably sound ridiculous to outsiders, but Curtis brings me everything ever ever ever and he doesn’t complain. While I was pregnant and didn’t want to get up you’d go to the kitchen and bring me a cookie. While I’m breastfeeding you bring me water. When I’m draped with a sleeping baby you bring me my book. While I’m trying to get Peanut to sleep in the room you bring me my phone. You literally run back and forth bringing me things constantly and I love you for it.

Thank you for sticking around. I know that we didn’t plan on getting pregnant so soon, but you were there for me and our baby 100%. You went to almost every prenatal appointment with me, Bradley Method classes every week for 3 months, and even caught Peanut on her way out. Thank you for rearranging your life for us.

Thank you for deal with me. I know that sounds over-dramatic, but I’m quite often over-dramatic. You deal with me and my craziness and you’re not afraid to tell me when I’m being crazy. You ground me.

Thank you for being the breadwinner. I know that you didn’t entirely agree with me being a stay at home mom at first, but I think you’re beginning to see the benefits and you realize how happy it makes me. Also, thank you for not complaining when I didn’t work for the second half of my pregnancy. A lot of other men would have been upset with me and wanted me to suck it up and get another job.

Thank you for being my advocate. Sometimes when I get timid and can’t defend myself, sometimes when our family questions our parenting choices, sometimes when friends get frustrated with me for leaving raids to go deal with the baby.

Thank you for watching Peanut while I went to school last semester. And thank you for not getting mad at me when I came home early because I missed her.

Thank you for cuddling with me when I really need a cuddle.

Thank you for not minding when I pause the show we’re watching for 20 minutes to get Peanut back to sleep.

Thank you for watching Desperate Housewives with me and even discussing it with me.

Thank you for watching Peanut sometimes so I can just take a nap.

Thank you for going with me to the grocery store when you don’t really want to.

Thank you for laughing even when my jokes aren’t very funny.

Thank you for realizing when I tell you to go away that I really don’t want you to.

Thank you for making me feel sexy.

Thank you for letting me dress you up every Halloween in a costume that matches mine.

Thank you for not yelling at me when I spend too much money.

Thank you for marrying me on such short notice and not caring what people think about it.

Thank you for loving me. Thank you for loving our daughter. I love you so much that the thought of it makes me tear up. I never want to lose you. You are a fantastic husband and father. I love you Couris. Not only that, I like you.

School

I started school Monday. It’s amazing how difficult it is to leave her for a few hours twice a week. I have to pump, we have to worry about bottles, she cries the whole time I’m gone. And I’m going to be gone even longer once my second class starts.

I do think this has given Curtis a new insight though. I don’t think he ever thought it was easy to take care of her, but I don’t think he realized how time consuming it really is. He told me yesterday that he understands why I never get on WoW anymore.

I’ve always been an excellent student, but with taking a semester off and my mind being focused elsewhere, it’s difficult to get back into the swing of things. Even more so, we’re not supposed to use cell phones in class so my mind is worrying the whole hour and a half I’m there. Stupid college professors that act like High School teachers.

And the kid that was “introducing me to the class” said “she’s JUST a stay at home mom.” Why did he look so confused when I didn’t sit by him again?

Baby Blues

I’m definitely feeling it. It seems like just the normal kind though. I just mostly feel a little useless. Kind of don’t know what to do with myself. I’m still playing WoW and what not, but I just feel like I should be doing more. I know I’m sustaining a life, but she sleeps so much and when she is awake, she’s quite often crying inconsolably. I find myself feeding her just because I know it will make her stop crying. I feel so useless because I can’t make her better.

Part of me wonders if she would even care if I were here. I mean, if she had a boob to suck on and someone to change her diaper, would she even notice if I were gone. They talk about the baby liking the sound of your voice from hearing it in the womb, but I wonder if she feels any attachment to me what’s so ever.

I also miss Curtis a lot of the time. Even when he’s here. I’m not quite sure what I pictured that it would be like, but I thought that I would be so much happier when I wasn’t pregnant anymore. I am happy, but things are different of course. I don’t have time that I can just cuddle with him. Luckily Curtis’s parents are willing to watch her while we take long showers. I like our showers.

I’m hoping all this will eventually pass. I know it will. I have appointments made with Dr. Newbold so I can talk about things. Not for a couple more weeks though. I’ll be fine until then.

Puter Come Back!!! I Lovesess Yooooous!

Yeah, you heard it here first, mah computer bit the dust. No funeral yet though, we’re going to fix it. “We” meaning Lance of course. He can’t look at it until Thursday though with all of the school work he has, so I’m borrowing Justin’s desktop. It doesn’t have the WoW expansion on it, so I’m downloading that currently. I also have to get all my mods. Lame!

I finished the “nursery.” Nursery is the term we use for the section of our room that will be hers.

I also worked on diaper inserts, which I really think I’m getting the hang of now. I’d like to try more fabrics, but for now I’m making 12 with 3 layers of microfiber covered in a cut up cloth diaper. I hope that this all goes well.

It’s Way Too Late… So I’m Sure This Blog Wont Make Sense

It really frustrates me how many women are induced. I just had a friend of mine tell me “I’m being induced tonight at 10pm! I’m so excited!” Personally, I would be scarred if I were being induced tonight at 10pm… because that means there’s something Wrong With The Baby! THAT’S the only reason someone should be induced. It’s not there for your or your doctor’s convenience. It’s not there because “I’m so fat and I don’t want to be pregnant anymore!” Your baby will come out when it’s ready! Do Not Force It!

Now that I’m done with my soap box. I just stayed up way too late trying to finish the last achievement for the Lunar Festival on WoW. The festival ends today, so I needed to get it done. I have to get up for a doctors appointment in like 4 hours. Oh well, it makes me happy.

Damnit! Why can everyone know what I know! I’m done.

Yay For Vanilla Tootsie Rolls!

I went to the spa today. The massage was absolutely fantastic. I really could have lived without the tummy exfoliation and foot massage. Not that they weren’t good, just not necessary. I also didn’t have to pay for it. My mother decided it was her treat. Curtis will be happy about that.

I also went to the Smith’s in Syracuse and got a bag of vanilla tootsie rolls. These Things Are The Best Candy Ever Thought Of.

Baby shower is tomorrow. I’m slightly nervous, but everything seems to be coming together. Thank god I don’t have to cook for this thing. I should vacuum though… just in case people come downstairs.

Well I’ve really been wanting to play WoW today. Which seems normal considering I haven’t been on for like three days because of The Cold. So I’m off!